This is a good morning for reflection.....
Last week as I waited for physical therapy (grumbling inside because I hurt),
a woman with no legs arrived for her therapy. Enough said.
As I thought an unkind thought about my husband because he didn't pick up the pillow that had fallen off the front porch rocker during a little wind, he called me to a delicious breakfast he had made.
As I re-visited some heated words my son and I had yesterday at the store,
he motioned for me to come to the back of the auction house
so he could load my purchases.
I have made a conscious choice to finally release my desire to have a perfect circle of friends and family, a formal dining room, a studio, a log cabin in the woods (or better the mountains), to be thin,
to be young again, have everything go my way....
In doing so, I have to admit something I have learned....
life is too short to continually re-visit unpleasant events and unfulfilled dreams.
Dreams are ok, as long as they don't obscure the present and make you ungrateful.
My home, the physical house, is what it is. As of May 24, 2012, there will very probably no more chances for "add ons" or complete re-do's...so? Is my life any less blessed? Maybe a bigger, better house would be more comfortable, but hey, this one is paid for. It's in pretty good shape.
Always striving for more is exhausting, folks.
We must do the very best with what we have been graciously given.
If that means moving around pieces in and outside the house and inside your heart, to make something function better, or paint or repurpose what we have...great...but let's not waste another precious second crying over spilled milk.
Examples of "spilled" milk (aka: what might have been):
*It would be nice to be 5'6" tall and weigh 115 lbs...but it "ain't" happening, (unless when I DO have knee replacement, the doctor agrees to add a 5" dowel in each leg during the operation...and the 115? Haha.)
* It would be great to have a 4,000 sq ft home with every little detail "just right"...but then you'd have to dust all that space...hmmm, small is looking better.
*Wouldn't we all love a family where every member looks and acts like angels 100% of the time...
(This one is hard for me..I must admit.)