I am glad you chose to visit! My blog is a compilation of the many hats I find myself wearing. On any given day I may be an encourager, an instructor, or just a lady who is venting. You, dear reader, will probably identify with my triumphs and my tribulations! These snapshots fit into my Life Scrapbook I have named A. McInnis Artworks. I hope you will find something worth your while.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Thoughts About Mothers

My Mother, Anne

Mother's Day has taken on a new tone for me. After losing my mother 3 1/2 years ago, the weekend of Mother's Day is quite hard. I still find myself at Christmas and Mother's Day, looking for the appropriate gift for her and suddenly remembering that there's no need. I long for the chance to hear her voice on the phone. Tears flow when I think of all the times I was "too busy" to chat for very long.

Every time I'd go to my parents house to visit, the first thing my mother always did was offer me a Diet Dr. Pepper. No matter what the time of day, she knew I liked them and so did she...usually I'd decline because I was rushed and "too busy". My personal life has had many twists and turns...many of them not happy...so it seems that I am always careening from one drama to another. In doing so, I've lost the ability to sit and visit and soak in the love of others. I've lost precious moments which I can never regain. The worst part of losing time with my mother is that I could have learned so much more from her. She was wise, witty, pretty and so much more... everything you'd want a mom to be.

As I sit here typing this post, tears flow once again. Even though I am approaching my sixty second birthday, I need a mother. I need a wiser older woman to reassure me that things are ok and that life, even though difficult, will turn out just the way God wants it to, and I can rest in that knowledge.

Maybe this should be a flash point ... I ask myself, "What would my mother want me to do at a time like this?" And I believe the answer is ... she'd want me to "mother" someone else ... someone who, like me, needs a mother's touch, a kind and encouraging word.

Here I am, with the whole day before me.... I have the time, and I'm going to get up, dress, go to the grocery store and buy the ingredients for a meal and take it to somebody who needs encouragement today... I'm not too busy and I'm NOT going to miss this opportunity. I hope you won't either.

Seize the day, hug your mom...


Mrs. Jinny Bailey said...

I enjoyed our visit yesterday! And you are such a sweet friend! Thank you for all of the "mothering" you've done the past few years, it means a lot!

Amanda said...

Love this post. Happy Mother's Day!

Peggy H. said...

If Anne could read your blog, she would say, "That's OK. I love you and I know you love me. Don't have any regrets because we truly had a special relationship." She was always loving, always forgiving and always understanding. She would have been so pleased at the way you have honored her memory these last 3 1/2 years. Just be thankful that you are so much like her.

Anonymous said...

Your mother would be proud to know that you have "mothered" many people- students, younger ladies, and even me! I learned so much from you when we taught together and often looked to you for wisdom and guidance. You are the person responsible for us finding our church home, Brandon Presbyterian! You also offered many pearls of wisdom to me when I became a mother! Although we don't see each other very often, I still continue to learn something new from you each time I see you! It might be a recipe or a neat decorating idea, but most often you are teaching so much more... faithfulness to the Lord and to your husband, love for family and the Lord, and how to look for the best in situations- (you often giggle/laugh your way through funny things that happen to you). You are even mothering my sweet Emily who always says each time we are around you, "I love Mrs. Angela! She is so neat!" Thank you for your friendship and all your "mothering"- Happy Mother's Day! Love, Tasha

Michelle said...

Thank you so much for everything...especially for being there just like my mom would be there for me. You are the best. Love you.